MY HEART SPEAKS ....

oh ya i miss you...................... i miss al those moments we shared....all our happines jokes sorrows we shared... i miss our late night chats ..messages.... i miss our romantic times and fights ..! oh ya i miss you..... you know how much it hurts me to lose you...... you know i cant live a moment without you... you knw none wl ever love u n care u lyk i do in ds wrld !! then y u left me!? i cnt bear ds pain  and I  wonder hw u bear ds pain! i dont hw long we go lyk ds.... i stil love u..and always wil ! u knw this love is true pure n deep and stil hw cn yu so be so mean to me ! u knw u r d best i cn evr get and am the one fr u ...stil hw cn u do ths to me!? you are my crowned princess and am your crownless prince... oh ya i miss you........ MITU RAJ :-)

endhokeyo bakki nirthi illatha karanavum paranj petten oru divasam enne ittech poi.........baki ullath oru pidi ormakalum...oru emptinessum mathram...ellam nashtapetah pole .:( ....words cnt descrbe ds..avalk engnae ith chyan kazhnju..? while i cant bear ds?

Enna Vazhkai Da Ithu !? my lyf is going to ups n downs .... lotta cheaters around.... their masks r cmng out....happy tht i realise it atleast nw and i move on... lyf smtmes seems to be crap... smtmes a crazy irritating puzzle... This world is weird... people make dis world.... they change lyk seasons.... here d ones whom we called  " best friend" bcms stranger or enemy at some instant.. so learn the lessn dat nbdy is permanent in  anybodys life  and  so love urself trust urself more dan anybdy  and move on in ds crazy journey called  life with a smile :-):-):-) e nna vazhkai da  ithu !!

october 30 2012 ...The Best Day Ever !??   Oyeeeeeeeeee !! this ws one day tu remember frvr ! guess wt!?? got into infosys :D !! my frst ever interview....wt an experience!! i stil remember each n evrythng i said in intrview..it has been an informal english communication scenario fr me ...thanks god it aint technical ;D :P ! very few got into infy frm my collg. and am proud to be one amng them and the only one frm my clss :) ...lotta treats have tu be done and did !! and still long way to go lol ! i think this is purely magical frm god.....i nevr expctd myself to get into this selection process as i had a backlog as a curse !!! fortunatly i cleared right bfre the selectn process :D just days bfre intrview reslts came and tht ws quite unbelievable to see me passed :P mm ! ...am qualified for test and i did well 8) as i am a lover of aptitude tests lyk ds whch steams ur brain :D and i knw i am gud in it :P ...whn reslts announcd lotta bujizz n fvrte stdnts of teachrs crashed out

SMART BOYZ ROCK AGAIN ! had  terrfc moments at kuttivattom at jimmichan's house tday....! .....eye cachnng surrondngs...wth lake n greenery n all...thengil kery karikk adich itt kudich thudakm itt ....made food on our own at kitchen..buying everyhtng frm market....tht ws smthng specl :D ..funny lunch preprtn...tradtnl kappa + beef + chammanthi etc etc ;D....kitchen alonkolam !!! oduvil veedu motham adich vaary vrtithi aakandi vanuu.... veedu thala keeezhl marichila enne ulu,.....then as usual photo sessionzz..and aftr spendng hours we left back...iniyum ingne oru day kityrunenkl enn agrahikunu! ..smart boyz rokzz.. :):)

gone crazy in love again....again the same person ..again the same condition :( :( :( ...am not returned what i seek.....y? :(:(

sept 8 : a dark day of emotional breakdown :(

unfrgetble frnds < 3 Mitha : My sis..My bestest friend ..nobdy knws me or undrstnd me more than she does :) my treasure :* Ashifa : the best frnd i hv evr got after my sis...amazing lovely sweet girl....rare frnd....hard to get a frnd lyk her whom you cn count upon and one who wil nvr let u go ...she undrstnds me very wel more over she can listen to me very patiently than anybdy.. <3 her lots.... Aparna : haaaa undoubtedly the best girl i evr met on this planet...100% joly funny lovely energetic..also my first love....mm...nw best friend....sinks with my likes n dslikes smoothly...knows my mind very well...share everythng....she is one frnd i cn nvr imagine losing..... Uma : ooooh ma frst frnd in orkut :D turning out to be one of the best frnds i got ....3 yrs since i knw her ..very possesve ..alambh ...lovely frnd ;) talktave lyk hel :O :P got my ears burst in phone many tyms ....smrt crazy n dreamy gal ....love her lots :)) she wl nvr let me go fr sure Rex : He is a

AUG 31 aug 31-2010....ente jeevitham mothathl maty maricha avale adhyamayi kandethiya  day....veendum oru aug 31 kadann povumbol manasil veendum oru vingal aanu....njn eppolum orkum "endinady pullee nee vannath my lifil :/ "...adhyamayi lifil oralod ishtam thonni..athum aval.......aa ishtam kond orupaadu sankadangalum vedanayum nshtangal mathrm aanu nediyath...njn agrahicha onum enik kityila....oru good frnd enna reethyil cnsderation kitty kaanum...ennalum i wished for a lot frm her....veendum oru aug 31 ethumbol adhyathe pranayam succes ayilallo ennoru vingalode orkunu...mathramalla manasl orupaadu emotions aanu...chutum ulla frnds avrde lovernte opam chilavazhkuna moments kanumbol ullil santhoshavum sankdvum orumich verum....athil pala frndsntem vishamangalum palathum solve chythum athnu ashwasamayi nikuna ente vishamangl aarenklum kanunno...avaril palarum inn maari irikunu orupaadu maari irikunu..attitude approach etc...endho ellarum pozhinj pokuna pole enne vitt....o

Final Year College Tour !!! atlast those days arrived !! most awaited tour of final yr.....frm aug 7-aug 15 i had the best most memorble days of our lyf so far :) ...colg tour was to pondichery mahabalipuram hydrabad hoganakkal and athirapply....pondichery and mahabalipuram was a lil lagging ...boring places....but cnt evr frgt the night stay at pondichery :D :D ..sleepless night and lotta incdnts tu remember....then every sort of enjymnts started t hydrbad....the whole 2 days wer cmpltly cherished....snowwrld ramoji filmcity...palaces museum charminar..golconda fort !! omg...then 2 nght stays wer mre than just memrble and descrble in wrds! :)) dfrnt exprces lyk trvellng in bus auto wth drver at nght ..speaking hindi :P...wandering here n thr...shpping...etc etc mouth watchng hehe....then incdnts at hotel....a lot !! hoganakkal ws memrble too wth waterfal journey in "kotta' on river :) ..then athirapally !! the most adventurous day of tour was thr !! enjoyd to core in water

love marriage ...wy stil objected here   !!?? each n every persn is free to love a persn of his own choice...no law objects it..does any ? but i am fed up of the bloody conditions one has to satisfy for  love has tu be succsful...i mean to end in marriage....true love is reasonless....but seems lyk its not conditionless to be sccsful...hw mny mny cndtns to b satisfied !?? religion... caste... family status...financial security...age ..qualifctns...looks...astrolgcl apprvl !! wt a damn  process !! this is smthng hppng only here in india...myself frm kerala....in westrn countries..thngs r dfrnt...ofcourse here we value family relatns verymch cmprd to westrnr...but still.....i cnt fully swallow this reality....if we cnt live wth a persn whom we love...then fr wt heck is this life for :/ ?  ..cn lyf  ever be more beautful than living wth the loved one...??  no.................then y love mrrge stil objected here!?? y we always look fr tht stupid cndtns.....?? if two people love eacho

hoy the memories of s3 tour stl carass me....so soon anthr collg tour ..! cnt wait fr tht!! hope to rock to core ! ...the whole "hellz angelz" batch of CEP .. is ready ! 8) 8) ..

Thattathin Marayath kandahtinte hang over ..omg...it nvr ends.....feelng so romantc everytime whn hearing those songs...and rememberng those scenes n dialgoues.........wt an influencial stuff ! mm!!

Thattathin Marayathu...................... A film to watch ! oduvil oru paadu nalukalk shesham  malayalthil oru romantic film irangy...thattathin marayathu....puthumukahngle vech vineeth irakya ee film pranayam ullil sooshkunna orotharum irukayyode thanne sweekarichu....frndsumayi theatrl vech adich polich thanne film kandu...oro dialogueum clap adichum  oro songum nenjod cherthum aswadchu..pranayam enna asulabha vikaram athinte ella cheruvayodum kudy thanne vineeth screenil kond vannu...simple n elegant, both directn n story..but powerful...athanu vineethinte vijayam ...filmil uda neelam pranayathnte bangyum kochu kochu thamashaklum mikacha dialguekulum scenukalum kondu oru nimishm polum njngle bore adikathe irikan vinneethnu kazhnju....nivinte mikacha abhinayavum,,isha enna ummachikutyude soundaryvum evergreen ayi thanne njngde manasl nikum theercha !! ee film kandillenkl theerchayayum ninglk oru nashtam thanne aanu!! ipo eniku oru aasha .....onnude ee film kananam!! kaanum!! :

am very happyy today ;) waited a long for this day ......................the revenge is done

MIT ha U ma R ex A shifa J ulie i discovered myself in you  :):)

My Sis , My Treasure :)  To have a sibling is like a gift to us ..and to me bro-sis is the perfect relationship :D dunno why i say this.. may be cz  i have a wondrful sis mitha :) ..shes my treaure..my best frnd..my angel evrythng :):).. I am cmpltly free n frank to her....I share evrythng wth her..cant hide anythng frm her,,,way too hard ..she wl b the frst one to hear evry single thing happngn to me ..:) .she knws me d best and undrstnds me the best in ths world...fghts wth her is lot funny and short living :D i enjoy itttt...we cant miss eachother..but mentaly shes stronger than me  so itz always me who miss her more and agonize ovr it when i move frm home :/ .We alwys like tu be called mitumitha tghthr as a single name as it cn perfectly show the bond btwn us :)..i alwys say i have the best sis n frnd in this wrld :D ...oh ya am possesv abt her and alwys keep her close tu me like a pearl..<3 no matter how much she grows ashe wl always be my lil sissy :* love her milionzz

Facebuk "Friendship".............. I have got a lotta friends frm FB.....to me many of them are lyk my own friends... I have mnaged to  get contact beyond facebuk with a many of them...But at some point i alwys realise majority among them are JUST FACEBUK frnds nly...whtout explanatns and reasnz contcts r renounced by a few of them....it realy suckz...i am done with a lot out there....and i am leaving....values of friendships r realised by them only when our absent is felt by them...smtmes still they wont realise it...anyway am leaving...a temporary revocation.....time to concentrate on studies rather than useless people out there...adieuu

COLLEGE again ... Collge startd again .....feel so lazy....lotta tensions worries disapointmnts in my mind....gotta sort it out nd concentrate on studies...i let down myself and hopes of mny..need to rise again.....good luck to me

MuSiC !!!!!!!  In my childhood i wasnt much attractd to music.....it ws like an irritatn ..i used to stop all those tape recrders whne dad plays it :P bla bla...hate songss....i nvr liked spendn time wth headphones and mp3 plyrs like othr frnds...I hv nvr undrstd the power of music..... I got addctd to it only when i joined collge :D ...cz i went thru  mny tough situatns....frm family separatn ..tensions n cold war wth reltvs...deep frndshps..brk upss !! omg !! love !! love brk!! failures  !! fghts !! mny situatns indeed ..i ws lonely always in my stupid lodge room :/ ..music ws my soul companion thr :)...i undrstd the power of music....hw it cn soothens ur mind..chills you...pacify you....smtmes encourage you...wtevr !! i love music n   music rockzzzzzzzzzzzz ! 

Boy n Girl friendship...how far it can go? Consder this situation.A boy n girl are best friends...they spend a lotta time together evrywhr......both are singles...but eventualy one of them gets in love with anthr person...say the boy....the boy now starts spending time with his lover or girlfrnd now....he cnt find time for his bestfrnd now....but he dsnt realise it....cz when fell i love he gts blind...like evry guy in ds world.....cn u imagne what the bestfrnds thinks now? she may undrstnd wy she is nt taken care like old days.cz now things changed.....but stil it pains in her mind...she maynt show it outsde...smtmes she may feel jealous...she may feel possessv..bt stil she maynt show it outsde fr their sake.... Now consider the other situatn if girl falls in love....the girl goes crazy wth her boyfrnd....the girl may still find time with her bestfrnd...more dan the boy cud find in previouus situatn..but certain limits cm thr.....she may nt interact like she did in old days..she

Whenever and Wherever i am , there are a few friends who have always bn with me......frst name cms to my mind is Ashifa .. :) ....i miss u ..this is for u....

AM PROUD TO BE A SAGITTARIAN !!! hey i ws born on dec 4..and guess wt am a sagittarian :D ...well we r independent ..we love freedom !!! we like mre to be on own or rathr than being under the care of smbdy :P .. sagittarians r honest by nature :) ..we r feared to tell lies do scamz etc....we r confidnt guys...confidence is our prime power ! we r funny in character..frank  n lack seriousness of life hehe...we r born brave n intelligent   8).. we hv lotta love in heart but dunno hw to show it :)  ...well talkng abt negtve side..we r impatient :P we dnt hv the word " patience" in our dictionary + we r careless + we r critic ..smtms sarcastic :P .. they say we r selfsh too. .. but hey  !  am nt selfsh  u guys knw ;)  these all stands as ngtv points...stl we r creatv minded. optmstc..innovator... etc ..we alwys want to do evrythng  dffrnt frm othrs ;) THAT MAKES US DFRNT..SAGITTARIAN 8)  by me2 R aJ

THE NEW GENERATION !! Let me first go back to my chlidhood first bfre i cn say anythn abt the abv topic :).. Well whn i go back or look back to my childhud, the first thing cms to my mind is my childhud frnds near my home...we used to play frm evening to night aftr cmng frm school..thrwng away school bags..nt even chngng unifrms we rush to our play areas like ground roads..we used to play variety of games outsde...crcket is the only valid name i cn gve u nw cz al othrs r domestc games of kids ..i dnt thnk it hs gt any name in englsh :P :P..u see we used to play a lot outsde..when frnds wer nt thr we used to spent time in frnt of our fvrte cartoon netwrk :D !!!! u knw wt...tom n jerry..popeye..bugs bunny...scooby doo etc etc etc !! abv all we spent a lot of time wth parents..o god funny nights evengs..hang outs..chats insde home!!!  the golden times 90s ! bt we nvr knew it ws cmng to an end.......cz then it came a boon....video games...it ws sch a craze..it ws at the start of 200

                         My First Love    Love..undoubtedly the most strong feeling and most desired feeling......we say I love my parents...we say I love my sister or brthr or frnds....its an emotion.. a strong attachmnt ,compassion twrds a person ....smtmes we say i fell in love wth him or her..by the way wts ds love??its romantic love..love in the form of romance...may be the most dscussed n most strange form of love..it cnt b fully defined in words...but we cn show wts love...to me love is a strange feeling whch we cnt resist to happen....it actualy happens itself!! thr r no reasonsfr tht ...true love is reasonless...the love may or may nt be reciprocated...ie; its nt compulsory tht the other persons returns you the same feeling...when u fal in love..it just spins ur head around..its like u reachd smwhr else...!! you get obsessed with tht person..no surprse if u see him or her in dreams cz dreams we see r innocent truthful desires hidden insde ur mind ,whch u may even ha

I WONDER i wonder whr dd i find u.... i wonder why did i talk to u... i wonder whn dd i start carin fr u... i wonder whch all thngs i shared wth u... i wonder wht made me fall fr u... i wonder how mch i miss u... i wonder in my dream whn u wil scream... i wonder if thr is a day whn u will say... i wonder if thr is a night whn u wil sight.... " I LOVE U " By me2 RaJ

Now all I can See is you One day i went for a walk.. Through brightness i moved.. Well eyed, Bliss minded.. Then i didnt search for you all.. Then i didnt call for you all.. Then everybody was there for me.. Then everybody was there to love me,care me.. Then i had you all.. Then i could feel you all.. Then i could hear you all.. Then i could see you all.. Another day i go for a walk.. Through darkness i move.. Blind eyed, Dull minded.. Now i search for u all.. Now i call for u all.. Now nobody is there for me but you.. Now nobody is there to love me,care me but you.. Now all i have is you.. Now all i can feel is you.. Now all i can hear is you.. Now all i can see is you.. By  mE2 RaJ

 Rain Rain Rain !!! I have beeen waitng for so long fr ths ....hey its monsooon!!! and it rains n rains n rains!! :D dunno wy ..i just enjoy watching rain outside...smtmes thru window or smtmes i wl be rght under the cooling showers !! playing in rain like kids lol :P ..no matter hw old..i guess evrbdy do enjoy rain ...to me its smthng tht cools my mind...it mkes me frget my sorrows all kinda tensions..it keeps me calm...it mkes me nostalgic bla bla!! :)))  it mkes me happy  ! whatevr !!!!!!!! its monsoooon !! if it refreshes ur mind too as i said then frgt ur age n play again like kidz under the showers! eeeeeeeeeee :D by me2 RaJ ! LIKE THIS PAGE IN FB here :i like standing near the window and looking out enjoying the rain ! :)   thank u!

This is one of the best videos i have cm across :) simple n touching....this is hw the best frnds suppose to be ;)

We were best friends !!  We hung out almost anywhere, with one another. We were always  together, You said forever. When we came to high school, I tried to hold  on to you. So I finally  gave up. So I now hold, on to the memories. You come to talk,  once in a while, But I only give,  you a smile. I'm trying not, to cry, All I was to do is say BYE. Source:  Sad Best Friend Poems, Friendship Ending   http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/sad-best-friend-poems-friendship-ending#ixzz1y2SR9QQS   www.FamilyFriendPoems.com 

My heart speakz These dayz I am a person with lotta sorrows lotta sadness... i am trying to forget it trying to be hppy always :) ....got hell lotta frnds....got close to mny of them.....bt as usual without reasons or with sm silly reasons they r leaving me...usual end....It realy sulks me..bein a senstv boy ..I cnt jst bear this anymre...am thrown to sch a situatn nw...i hv to escape from all sorta troubles...atleast i want to tell my mind repeatedly tht am happy happy!! ths y starting this blog...i jst wanna show off my feelngs..just flush it away...rathr than keepng it insde n hurted..my heart speaks here .... :) MiTu RaJ